Today is my first day admitting...

I knew this day was coming.  I've decided that my life of chaos has to BEGIN to END!  I cannot change it completely overnight and it probably will be a life-long process but I have to start somewhere.  So here is my admitting part:

I am disorganized and looking at my piles gives me anxiety and I am overwhelmed.

I have a couple of friends who know how to organize and their homes (even with young children at home) are immaculate whenever you come to call.  Even when their kids toys are spread over the entire room their homes are still organized.  Part of that is because they have nicer furniture and so their messes don't "look so bad".  I'm working on the furniture part but when money is tight and the medical bills pile up along with car repairs, house repairs, school stuff...you know what I mean...furniture is the LAST thing I'm going to spend money on.  I will make my hand-me-downs with splits and rips last a little while longer and I'll make my carpet and torn linoleum last another few months (or years).

But there MUST be something I can do to make my home better right?  I've always said I would go back to school to get a Master's in SOMETHING one day.  So I've decided to go to "organizational" school.  It is going to be self-taught because I can't afford to pay anyone to teach me.  I am determined to learn to organize the paper, laundry, bathrooms, bedrooms, closets, EVERYTHING!  I will take my house and turn it into my home.  My family deserves better from me.  I will conquer the chaos.

I had the chance to listen to Julie B. Beck last week and she said, "You are doing better than you think you are but I feel compelled to tell you that you can do better."  That statement made an impression in my life.

I want to do better but I will start giving myself credit for the good things I do.  So this will be my start.  This blog will be my secret way of recording what I am doing.  It will be my way of showing what I'm doing to organize something every day.

I do have 3 young children so it's going to take a while...but I will do it!